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Time of writing: 30. November 2019 Just how much has happened this year? The year is almost over and I actually want to undo a lot of what happened and start over. I jumped into the year in a bad mood. With friends that I still love and will continue to love, appreciate and respect very much. The fireworks I hoped to be able to make myself were not as it should have been, therefore the bad mood. But thanks to my friends it wasn't so bad. Still a shame. The best news was right on the first of January when I woke up at home and saw my kitchen window. Cracked and damaged. It only took one damn month (literally until the beginning of February) until the glass was fixed again because a new one was installed. At that time I started to behave strangely. Partly for reasons which are still not clear to me today and I made decisions which I did not want to make, and have chosen incorrectly. I lost friends. Which are still very important to me and will surely remain important, even if we

I dreamt something, which wasn't mainly about Remi (besides the 10 dreams before that were...), it was about a lot of things and it was somewhat confusing. But I have to admit... I love dreaming. Another world, even if it is filled with problems, emotions and feelings of the real world. In your dreams, things can happen, that would never happen in real life. Or at least not in the way you dream it. No matter if they are good or bad things. Yes, of course I am afraid of some things (the dream of Cleos death and what happened between me and Remi) because when I'm dreaming, it feels like the dream is now the real life, or that it happened for re